About Me

About Me

Linda Bartosik...
First steps of a beginning writer/artist/illustrator. Follow me on my journey. Read More...

My newest book now available on Amazon!

My newest book now available on Amazon!

Many treasures lie under the sea, but will Alistar find the one that will make ‘The Perfect Birthday Present’ for his mom? Join this adventurous little sea star and his best buddy Barnaby (a blob fish) as they travel through the beautiful deep blue sea, meeting many other creatures of the deep. When the two friends finally stumble upon the perfect present, Alistar needs to make a difficult decision, which only he can make. When he does, the little sea star learns that there are times when it is not the present that is important, but the thought behind it.

My First Cover! Now available on Amazon – Kindle & Hardcover

My First Cover! Now available on Amazon – Kindle & Hardcover

For Linda Crowley, the first day of the year had always been set aside to work on new, positive beginnings and 1970 was no different. Her husband and children were by all accounts healthy and no one even considered the terrible thought that tragedy would strike before the day was over, and life as she had known it was gone.

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My first illustrating project available on Amazon

My first illustrating project available on Amazon

Haley doesn't have a normal pet she has a goat, Ralph. He thinks he's having fun but he's causing untold trouble for Haley. Trouble seems to follow Ralph everywhere he goes only he doesn't know it. Haley's father says Ralph has to be sold!

Stopping

This morning’s Bikram yoga class was not about starting, it was about stopping. Standing head to knee is still my nemesis pose. “Lock your left leg and reach down and pick up your right foot”, instructs the teacher. I reach down, fall sideways, straighten up, reach down again and this time I grab it. I’m holding on for dear life while the rest of the class is straightening their right leg “so it looks like an “L” like Linda.” (I find it I ironic that my name is part of the dialogue in the pose that I cannot do). I used to be able to do this pose, and most of the time, hold it for the full count. Once my legs began developing actual muscles in Koko Fit Club, just bending over and grabbing my foot in my hands has become nearly impossible.

I fall out of the pose two more times. Maybe I should just sit down because all of this grabbing and falling out in this heat is zapping my energy. While reaching down for my left foot, I’m still picturing myself stopping and sitting down. Stopping sounds good. Sitting sounds wonderful. Then I think about having to get back up. That doesn’t sound so great. (By now we are into the second set and I’m still grabbing, wobbling, and falling out.) I remember how it feels to stand back up and re-enter the pose after sitting for a few moments. Usually I get dizzy and have to sit back down again. I came to the realization that stopping is not the answer. It makes me feel worse and it’s definitely too hard to get back up. It takes a lot more effort than it takes to remain standing and keep trying. (By now the pose is over and I made it through without stopping.)

When I’m illustrating, if I don’t move to the next page for a few days, it becomes hard to get back in the chair and begin the next sketch.

If I’m shoveling clam shells and take a water break on the patio, it becomes hard to push up out of that chair and pick up the shovel again.

If I’m cleaning the house and stop for coffee and a snack, it becomes hard to pick up that vacuum again.

When I was teaching school it was way easier to go to school sick, than to write plans for someone else to teach.

When I did stay home sick for a few days, it was hard to leave that couch, get dressed and get back to work.

Stopping. Maybe in my mind it means a break, but it’s a cruel trick because starting again after stopping is harder than just seeing it through. When I don’t let my mind get the best of me and trick me into limiting myself, I accomplish things I never thought possible.

When have you “stopped” and found it hard to get going again? Do you think you could’ve pushed through?

And so, as another day goes by, I need to rethink stopping as an option when things get too difficult, and…I have written.

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